Negativity.

Running the other day lead me to what I believe to be some pretty profound thoughts. Or at least for me they are profound. Maybe I am just a little behind in the times though.

I realized I was completely unhappy. I was sad, depressed, angry, mean, spiteful and horrible. It was disgusting what I had become. All of this had leaked into other parts of my life. Whether it was just wanting to stay in bed an hour or two longer and just stare at my phone, creeping through photos of people across the country they had posted on Twitter or Instagram (I know… only partially crazy… But clicks lead to clicks…) or the fact that my jeans were fitting a little tighter than usual, I was horrified. What was wrong with me??

Not so long ago, I got to be myself. I don’t know where it came from, but I acted as I had acted a year ago, two years ago. I was confident, I was self-assured, I was happy. And then I realized I needed this more. I needed to go back to being me.

So what did that mean?

Well first: GET RID OF WHAT IS NEGATIVE.

Stop having negative thoughts, stop saying negative things, stop being mean.

Where was the acceptance? Where was the joy of the undiscovered, the new, the different?

Where was my different?

And that is what started it. First, it was getting rid of clutter and unnecessary objects, then it was getting rid of the negative impact on my life, which in turn would create the more positive outlook. Right?

Sometimes that means taking a risk and going out on a limb.

As Mark Twain stated, that’s where all the fruit is.

All the deepest of thoughts are thunk on the run. And this weeks been full of them. So here’s to a few more blog posts. And here’s to a few more jars filled with coffee and even a little cider here or there.

Happy Weekend, friends.