Perceived: Part Three

How often do you get a compliment and believe it? Or do you just say thank you and let t roll, thinking "They didn't really mean that."?
 I rely on others to make me feel better. Which can be helpful, but if you won’t love yourself, why should others do the work for you.

That’s the thing; I was lucky to have my friends that day, to run with them for two of my three loops. But they weren’t there to carry me, rather I was there to prove to myself that I could do this. I could run the distance. I’m going to be ok.

It is something I have forgotten since. I felt for a very long time that I had no control anymore. I had no idea what was going on, my life felt in shambles. 
But I wasn’t.

motivate yourself

Sometimes it takes a beer (or three) and a friend to verbally slap you across the face (thank goodness it wasn’t literal) and say, “Hey. Wake up sweetheart. You aren’t the only one hurting and you are special. So you better start believing it. So, you should show me.”

And there it was. The sign I had thought I needed for a long time. I had been waiting, but it had been there the whole time in front of me, I just had to wake up and see it. At that point I needed help. I had dug myself so deep that I was too bleary eyed to realize, I was alive, and I woke up everyday. That was a pretty decent life. And now it is time to start living, not just surviving. I've got good qualities and bad, so does everybody. But I've got to start accepting those good ones. 

Now, I am taking steps, forward, and sometimes back, but they are all steps just the same. Moving is something. Just like running the final climb that day. Put one foot in front of the other. Live in the moment. 


So let’s get going.
Go for a run. Go read a book. Go outside. Enjoy the sunshine, the rain, the wind, the whatever. Just go outside, take a big breath in and smile. 
It is as simple as that. 

photo credit: Jon Jonkers

“You’re off to great places, today is your day! Your mountain is waiting, so get on your way!!”  --Dr. Seuss. 

More stories and things to come, but that's where we are at now. Taking steps, I don't know what number we're on, but lets just get going.